I was so humiliated today. My mum and I was out shopping and I did buy a new DKNY-pants. Nothing unusual about that, but when I was in the test room and tried this pants on my mum told me "U can't buy those pants. When the summer is here they don't will fit anymore." Then I asked why and she said "because u have lost so much weight the last six months and u have started to eat like a pig again now so when the summer is here they will be too small" I was so mad at her that I started to yell at her in the store and. I screamd at her and told her that if they don't fit when the summer comes it is because they are to big. I said I will never ever gain the weight I have lost! I could see I had hurt her, but I don't care. I just want to be thin!!!

I had some dreadful binges today. When we had dinner I did eat to plates with rice pudding, and I have also eated a bag with "godt og blandet", and a pizza. Butat least I did take 5 laxes. Gosh, I hate it. Why can't I just eliminate all food? But then everyone had been so much thinner than me.

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